Good books
can be hard to find. Reading time can also be hard to find, especially being in
the HISP program and just having an all-around busy life. When I first picked
up this book in the teen section of the library last Saturday, I thought, Well, my mom read it and said it was good,
and there's fandom stuff? I guess I'll get it. But I wasn't expecting very
much from it. I read a few pages Saturday night, a chapter on Sunday, and by
Monday I was fully hooked. On Tuesday I read about a hundred and fifty pages.
Anyone who has spent a sizeable amount of time in my presence over the last two
days has probably witnessed my devotion. I became so invested in it that I was
reading it during passing period, making it through up to ten pages as I
devoured Rowell's masterwork.
But what
I'm really trying to get at is: I finished the book. And now, I am incredibly
sad. And also happy? But mostly kind of lament-y. I really wish there was a
sequel. But, I still have a chance to read the main characters ultra long,
super cool fanfiction (written by the indomitable Rainbow Rowell, of course)!
This post
is a lot more of a book review than a gripping, grimy, hard-hitting criticism
of the media. I am not saying that books are not media. They most certainly
are. Nobody ever stops talking about when Gutenberg invented the printing
press. That was a really important moment in human history (or European
history, at least), because it made books and information widely available to
people. Books are definitely means of mass communication. I could throw out
examples all day: Harry Potter, the
Laura Ingalls Wilder novels, Golden Books, Maximum
Ride, all the Nancy Drew and Hardy Brothers books, The Great Gatsby, The Old Man
and the Sea, Great Expectations, The Lord of the Rings, etc, etc. Gee
willikers, there's a huge network of people who have read these books.
Anyhow,
back to Fangirl. I am very impressed
by this book, as it was inspiring and enthralling for a person like me, who
took a hiatus of sorts from reading outside of class. I will offer Rowell's
brief summary for those of you yet to read it:
"Cath is a Simon Snow fan.
Okay, the whole world is a Simon Snow fan...
But for Cath, being a fan is her life—and she’s really good
at it. She and her twin sister, Wren, ensconced themselves in the Simon Snow
series when they were just kids; it’s what got them through their mother
leaving.
Reading. Rereading. Hanging out in Simon Snow forums,
writing Simon Snow fan fiction, dressing up like the characters for every movie
premiere.
Cath’s sister has mostly grown away from fandom, but Cath
can’t let go. She doesn’t want to.
Now that they’re going to college, Wren has told Cath she
doesn’t want to be roommates. Cath is on her own, completely outside of her
comfort zone. She’s got a surly roommate with a charming, always-around
boyfriend, a fiction-writing professor who thinks fan fiction is the end of the
civilized world, a handsome classmate who only wants to talk about words... And
she can’t stop worrying about her dad, who’s loving and fragile and has never
really been alone.
For Cath, the question is: Can she do this?
Can she make it without Wren holding her hand? Is she ready
to start living her own life? Writing her own stories?
And does she even want to move on if it means leaving Simon
Snow behind?"
Gosh, even
the summary sounds fantastic. I would read it again. But now it's time to really look at some of the messages
that Fangirl promulgates. A lot of
the book is about being afraid to step out of one's comfort zone. I think that
we can all relate to this: it is hard to try new things when you know you can
get hurt. Not even hurt sometimes, but disappointed, or just not knowing what
will happen to you. Cath, our main character, even mentions once that she's
afraid of everything:
I feel you.
Even if there wasn't so much in this world to fear, I would still probably be
scared of all of it. Or a sizeable amount, at least. There's also a lot of
crazy and 'I-don't-know-how-to-talk-to-people' inside of me.
In another
quote from the novel, Cath asks if it is ok to quit when something is hurting
you:
While I
don’t agree, I can still see why this may be an attractive option. Giving up,
while it may not always be easy, is still way easier than sticking it through
and making it. But I think the notable message from this is that Cath doesn't
give up, thereby telling us, as readers, that we shouldn't give up either. When
the going gets tough, the tough get going.
I'm going
to analyze some of my favorite quotes from this book, which coincidently have
catchy graphics made for them by internet people. Thank you, Internet (most
likely Tumblr)!
I love this
quote because sometimes that is exactly what writing feels like. Sometimes,
writing can be stressed, forced, like trying to use a pencil on a cheese
grater. Other times, it's just like this, like sprinting down a hill, where
your brain goes too fast for your fingers or pen. That's what this post became
for me. The urge was burning inside me and I just had to write it. Starting is
always tough, just like it was for Cath, but now it's coming out so easily.
This quote
really gets into that desire for stability and comfort that many youths write
off as corny. "Happily ever after" is good. Like Cath's twin sister,
Wren said, "The ultimate act of heroism shouldn't be death." (387)
Literally, how is that romantic at all? Ah yes, I love you so much that when
the time comes I'll just die! For you! Amazing. I think it's more courageous,
just like Wren, to really stick out that love and work through life without
someone dying. Because when you kill off someone's love (literally), you
figuratively accomplish the same task. That person won't mourn you forever if
they are a normally emotionally-functioning human being. They'll move on, and
the martyr will become nothing but a memory.
This is my
favorite quote in the book, but it doesn't appear in my favorite context. One of
the characters is explaining the downside of fanfiction, which I adore almost
completely. But it is a very true quote. Even now, as I write this, I am
creating a tangible representation of all the unconscious thoughts in my head.
I am connecting that which is impalpable, and defining it. How is that anything
but profound?
When it
really comes down to it, I love this book, so, so much. I love it so much that
I just can't even.
Seriously.
I really hope there's fanfiction of this book because I'm gonna need it real
bad in about a day or two after my brain fully understands that there is no
more original content to read. One of the things I really enjoy is that in the
Acknowledgements in the back of the book, Rowell does a shout-out to all the
fanfic-writers (and readers!) and appreciates us. That was really pleasing, as
I read and write fic fairly often.
Media can
come in all shapes and sizes, even a quirky little novel about a freshman in
college who loves to write (awesome) gay fanfiction. If you have any time to
enjoy these messages about love and live, Fangirl
is only 438 pages.
-From a Fan